[ She wonders what she can do to sound different while anonymous... Maybe use the same words the kids do nowadays? The "LOL" and "lmfao" and "XDDD." People would not suspect it's her then... She'll have to think about it. ]
As for what you said in that message back then, I
[ She'd started "typing" this, but then she immediately deletes it. Hopefully he hasn't seen it. ]
[ He hadn't been expecting sentiment or a thank you or anything like that, sure. But he didn't think her lack of anonymity would be her only concern either... ]
[ Tezcatlipoca has gotten left on read so much already that he just scoffs eventually and figures this is another case of that. So, it's a surprise when he does get another message after all, and the timing isn't missed. After all, he's awake, closing up the bar. ]
well I feel like mocking you NOW yeah because what the hell
You have been nothing but annoying and obnoxious towards me. And in return, I have treated you in kind. It is difficult for me to understand why you would write me such a message.
[ That takes a minute for her to think about it. Would she have tried sending a message to see if he's really gone? Probably. Would she have said something kind in that message, something she'd never dared tell him before? Is there anything she'd praise him over? His dedication to his ideals and to his master are admirable, yes. But...
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I do not know. No. I I do not think I would have.
[ She's genuinely unsure, but she prefers going with the option that makes her feel the worse. And it makes her feel horrible, because for all of her talks of him being closed-minded and obnoxious-- She is the one who has never so much as given him the benefit of the doubt or tried to see what's good in him. ]
My apologies. I may have misjudged you. Perhaps you are a better god, no, person, than I thought.
hey now you don't have to go that far. I'm still an asshole don't worry about that
so like I said. not mad about the answer.
we're gods with different viewpoints and different concerns. maybe that's profound. maybe it isn't. but I don't think anyone crosses my path by coincidence, including other gods.
that's why I sent it.
[ Which... does not explain it at all, but that's intentional. It's the sort of god he is. His serious sentiments are meant to be reflected on, not to give an answer. ]
[ But she thinks she understands him a little bit better now. A positive to this horrible experience she's gone through, maybe.
... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... W-Well she has nothing else to say, just a lot of confused thoughts and even more questions. But she can't just let "perhaps" be her final word after that! She can't give him a compliment though, that would be hypocritical. Guh. Talking to him had been much more easy when she'd seen him as little more than a shameful god with no redeeming qualities.
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I mean works for most people
you're just hard to mistake for anyone else
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[ She wonders what she can do to sound different while anonymous... Maybe use the same words the kids do nowadays? The "LOL" and "lmfao" and "XDDD." People would not suspect it's her then... She'll have to think about it. ]
As for what you said in that message back then, I[ She'd started "typing" this, but then she immediately deletes it. Hopefully he hasn't seen it. ]
I have matters that need attending. Farewell.
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that's seriously all you wanted to ask?
[ He hadn't been expecting sentiment or a thank you or anything like that, sure. But he didn't think her lack of anonymity would be her only concern either... ]
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... And there are no replies. Not until somewhere around 3AM, that is. ]
I know you.
If I say thank you or that I'm touched, you will mock me.
So yes, that's all I wanted to ask.
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well I feel like mocking you NOW yeah because what the hell
didn't exactly send that shit on a whim
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And in return, I have treated you in kind.
It is difficult for me to understand why you would write me such a message.
[ Is he one of those "tsundere?" ]
But if you did mean those words.
I thank you.
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of course I meant it. I wouldn't say something like that just to fuck with someone.
if it'd been me instead of you in the castle you wouldn't have considered sending something similar?
won't be mad if the answer's no. genuinely asking here
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I do not know.
No.
I
I do not think I would have.
[ She's genuinely unsure, but she prefers going with the option that makes her feel the worse. And it makes her feel horrible, because for all of her talks of him being closed-minded and obnoxious-- She is the one who has never so much as given him the benefit of the doubt or tried to see what's good in him. ]
My apologies. I may have misjudged you.
Perhaps you are a better god, no, person, than I thought.
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so like I said. not mad about the answer.
we're gods with different viewpoints and different concerns. maybe that's profound. maybe it isn't. but I don't think anyone crosses my path by coincidence, including other gods.
that's why I sent it.
[ Which... does not explain it at all, but that's intentional. It's the sort of god he is. His serious sentiments are meant to be reflected on, not to give an answer. ]
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[ She's not using the word "asshole," she's too dignified for that. ]
But you are also more than that.
That I never had the discernment to see as much is shameful.
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[ he feels like he should point that out, even if she already knows it... ]
don't sweat it too much. I'm not a god that's easily understood and that's fine. the way it's supposed to be, arguably
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[ But she thinks she understands him a little bit better now. A positive to this horrible experience she's gone through, maybe.
... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... W-Well she has nothing else to say, just a lot of confused thoughts and even more questions. But she can't just let "perhaps" be her final word after that! She can't give him a compliment though, that would be hypocritical. Guh. Talking to him had been much more easy when she'd seen him as little more than a shameful god with no redeeming qualities.
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Good night.