like it'd be one thing if I chose to get corrupted, but if it wasn't intentional? that feels like rolling the dice. has to do with self-sacrifice and how important that is for our pantheon
not saying it's a good reason exactly but more that's just how shit works for me yknow
...plus. on the less divine side of things I just wouldn't like it. I try and keep things casual when I'm hanging out down here, but the disrespect of some mortals treating me like a science project would piss me off.
It's not that bad. They've been really kind and respectful.
And you know... You don't really have to follow your usual rules here. We're disconnected from the rest of our divinity, And nothing really impacts our worlds.
What I'm trying to say is that if even I manage to change, You don't really have any excuses. Except age, I suppose.
[ He's old as all heck, that's for sure. Though she's not sure his baby days as a microscopic bacteria would count for his sentient existence... He's still older than her. ]
...you'd think. but you were also on the receiving end of my particular brand of cosmic bad luck, so I don't know man. could just be coincidence but that's also one hell of a coincidence right??? ain't no way
my serious answer is that I can't exactly resent it since I've always figured that it's part of the safety mechanisms that come with having a view into the windows of time and parallel worlds. forcing responsibility and all since as far as I know you can count the beings with that kinda insight on one hand
my joking answer is that the universe is a real dickhead that doesn't let me have any fun
[ ...But considering most of his ideas of "fun"? Yeah, no, it's probably fair, he's right. ]
anyways. all that to say that glad that they're being respectful. had a moment of concern for you there
plus gotta worry about humans and divine or scientific knowledge yknow? they get crazy way too easily about that kinda shit
Well, maybe a little bit. But I trust them more than I would their equivalent in our world.
[ Human mages are truly the worst. ]
Honestly you're too strict on yourself. No. You're making excuses. The same ones you did last time we talked of this. It feel like going in circle...
Maybe you have yet to face a "trial" of your own. I have one through quite a few ordeals in my time here... They have helped me realize those things that I otherwise never would have, Had I never been in this world in a human body. Perhaps next shall be your turn.
ha, ain't that the truth? maybe that's more the problem, I'm just a little paranoid because mages are insane fuckers. like, I like them obviously, but still! you know how many times I'd get nosy and take a peek at what they were up to and just end up shaking my head?
a lot. and when they blow themselves up (sometimes literal) they don't even get the luxury of coming to my underworld for the trouble, mostly
[ It's easier to joke about that than the other half of the message. In part, she's right, after all. He is hard on himself, but that's also why this is a little bit of a circular conversation. He's also stubborn. So, to himself, he just laughs, because he doesn't actually agree, but... He thinks it's kind of her to think so. It makes it easy to let it go. ]
but maybe you're right. we'll just have to wait and see huh?
course if I get a trial that's almost guaranteed to be something crazy and fucked up I'm ure
[ Who in the world would possibly come up with the idea of bleaching the planet? A mage, yup. But unlike him, she chooses to focus on what he wants to avoid. ]
It will likely be so. For you, at the very least. It may force you to reconsider what you believe with absolute certainty, And to change what you thought could never be changed.
Though I dare hope you will not become a Beast. I do not think our friends would be capable to overcome you. Unlike me, you wouldn't subconsciously make decisions that compromise your plan.
[ So much for his diversionary topic. He huffs out a laugh, but the reply does take longer, though @ nice toy is typing the whole time. It's harder for him to put these feelings into words, because the balance of his duties to what he personally feels...
...Well, it's where he deeply relates to her. ]
they wouldn't be able to nah
[ He does start with that, but it's not bragging, as is clear from how simply he puts it. Ironically, the only person he thinks could stand a chance would be Daybit, and that's because his extra passengers are cheaters more than anything else. More importantly, though: ]
I wouldn't mind reconsidering you know that right? ain't just me being stubborn for the sake of it. getting proved wrong for once would be nice
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But even though they can't replicate divinity,
They may yet learn something by studying how I resisted.
Wouldn't you want to try and get something good out of your experience,
Had you been the one corrupted?
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like it'd be one thing if I chose to get corrupted, but if it wasn't intentional? that feels like rolling the dice. has to do with self-sacrifice and how important that is for our pantheon
not saying it's a good reason exactly but more that's just how shit works for me yknow
...plus. on the less divine side of things I just wouldn't like it. I try and keep things casual when I'm hanging out down here, but the disrespect of some mortals treating me like a science project would piss me off.
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They've been really kind and respectful.
And you know...
You don't really have to follow your usual rules here.
We're disconnected from the rest of our divinity,
And nothing really impacts our worlds.
What I'm trying to say is that if even I manage to change,
You don't really have any excuses.
Except age, I suppose.
[ He's old as all heck, that's for sure. Though she's not sure his baby days as a microscopic bacteria would count for his sentient existence... He's still older than her. ]
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my serious answer is that I can't exactly resent it since I've always figured that it's part of the safety mechanisms that come with having a view into the windows of time and parallel worlds. forcing responsibility and all since as far as I know you can count the beings with that kinda insight on one hand
my joking answer is that the universe is a real dickhead that doesn't let me have any fun
[ ...But considering most of his ideas of "fun"? Yeah, no, it's probably fair, he's right. ]
anyways. all that to say that glad that they're being respectful. had a moment of concern for you there
plus gotta worry about humans and divine or scientific knowledge yknow? they get crazy way too easily about that kinda shit
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Well, maybe a little bit.
But I trust them more than I would their equivalent in our world.
[ Human mages are truly the worst. ]
Honestly you're too strict on yourself.
No. You're making excuses.
The same ones you did last time we talked of this.
It feel like going in circle...
Maybe you have yet to face a "trial" of your own.
I have one through quite a few ordeals in my time here...
They have helped me realize those things that I otherwise never would have,
Had I never been in this world in a human body.
Perhaps next shall be your turn.
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a lot. and when they blow themselves up (sometimes literal) they don't even get the luxury of coming to my underworld for the trouble, mostly
[ It's easier to joke about that than the other half of the message. In part, she's right, after all. He is hard on himself, but that's also why this is a little bit of a circular conversation. He's also stubborn. So, to himself, he just laughs, because he doesn't actually agree, but... He thinks it's kind of her to think so. It makes it easy to let it go. ]
but maybe you're right. we'll just have to wait and see huh?
course if I get a trial that's almost guaranteed to be something crazy and fucked up I'm ure
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[ Who in the world would possibly come up with the idea of bleaching the planet? A mage, yup. But unlike him, she chooses to focus on what he wants to avoid. ]
It will likely be so.
For you, at the very least.
It may force you to reconsider what you believe with absolute certainty,
And to change what you thought could never be changed.
Though I dare hope you will not become a Beast.
I do not think our friends would be capable to overcome you.
Unlike me, you wouldn't subconsciously make decisions that compromise your plan.
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...Well, it's where he deeply relates to her. ]
they wouldn't be able to nah
[ He does start with that, but it's not bragging, as is clear from how simply he puts it. Ironically, the only person he thinks could stand a chance would be Daybit, and that's because his extra passengers are cheaters more than anything else. More importantly, though: ]
I wouldn't mind reconsidering you know that right? ain't just me being stubborn for the sake of it. getting proved wrong for once would be nice
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And I hope you will.
It's not a chance we were ever meant to have.
Just let me know when it happens.
I'm curious to see the result.